On December 1, I had decided to read through Proverbs the whole month.
They're all about wisdom.
I wouldn't of guessed that I'd be tested & my prayer would be answered:
"Help me to understand how to be wise." I prayed.
Well God answers prayer, doncha know?
Yesterday, I went to my cousins house. It was a blast!
But that's not the point here.
The point is that I was being tested.
You see, lately, it's been hard for me to turn down a movie when someone wants to watch it.
I'm talking about worldly movies. And I'm also talking about watching it at home, when it's harder than turning down a movie @ the theater.
Is that hard for you? How can I say, "No I don't agree with the things they do in that movie"?
It's harder than it sounds.
Especially if you're younger & don't know if they'll think you think you're better than everyone else, or if they'll actually take you seriously.
I felt like I wasn't standing up for what I believe in.
Well, those verses were somethin' else. I can't believe how relevant they were to my situation.
I think God was preparing me. I think He was testing me, & I think He allowed all this to happen.
What the devil meant for harm....
God used for good.
"...when trouble & stress overcome you...they will call to me (wisdom) , but I won't answer...[because they chose] not to fear the Lord."
-Proverbs 1:27-29-
I didn't fear Him. I feared man.
"Never let loyalty & faithfulness leave you."
-Proverbs 3:3-
I want to be loyal & faithful to God. More than I have been. & in every part of my life.
"Her (wisdom's) ways are pleasant, & all her paths [are] peaceful."
-Proverbs 3:17-
I was anything but peaceful as I sat there hearing blasphemy of God's name.
"...and your sleep will be pleasant."
-Proverbs 3:24-
No, my sleep last night wasn't pleasant.
"Keep your way from her ( the forbidden woman)...Don't go near the door of her house. Otherwise, you will give up your vitality to others & your years to someone cruel..."
-Proverbs 5:8-9-
I am not saying that my cousin or anyone else is cruel or at fault for what I do. We all have our own faults.
But I made the mistake for choosing the foolish "woman" instead of the "wise".
When I want to please God & do, I am peaceful & mysleep is sweet. But when I blow it, I am so miserable.
"Carefully consider your path..."
-Proverbs 4:26-
The forbidden woman will ruin my life.
But wisdom, she will give me a crown of beauty.
(Prov. 4:9)
